A Mother’s Journey of Grief, Healing, and Unconditional Love
This Mother’s Day marks a deeply emotional milestone for me—my third as a mother, and my first celebrating with my rainbow baby in my arms after the devastating loss of our first daughter, Baby Girl, at 20 weeks. Mother’s Day after baby loss carries a mix of emotions: grief, love, healing, and overwhelming gratitude.
My First Mother’s Day: Joy, Heartbreak, and Losing My Baby Girl
My very first Mother’s Day was in May 2023, just a week after my husband and I discovered we were expecting. We shared the news with my mother-in-law in a heartfelt surprise: a card with our positive pregnancy test. Her joyful reaction made that day unforgettable. But just a few months later, in August 2023, our baby girl passed away at 20 weeks. The grief was devastating. Read more about our loss and journey to healing here.
Finding Hope Again: Pregnant with My Rainbow Baby on Mother’s Day
By Mother’s Day 2024, I found myself six months pregnant again—this time with another baby girl. Hope cautiously returned. My belly had blossomed into a beautiful bump, and my mother-in-law gifted me a shirt that read, “Eating tacos for two.” That moment felt surreal. For the first time, I allowed myself to believe that maybe—just maybe—this pregnancy might go the way I had always dreamed.
We clung to every small milestone. I still remember the screenshot we took of our baby’s survival odds improving week by week. As we inched toward 60–70%, our anxiety began to ease.
Then in July 2024, our miracle arrived. Samantha—perfect, strong, and full of life—entered our world. This Mother’s Day, I get to celebrate with her in my arms.
Holding My Rainbow Baby: A Healing Mother’s Day Celebration
Mother’s Day holds such deep meaning for me now. It’s a day of gratitude, remembrance, and immense love. I celebrate my journey through motherhood by honoring both of my daughters—the one I hold in my arms and the one I hold in my heart.
This day is bittersweet. It reminds me of everything I’ve been through, but also of everything I’ve gained. I see Mother’s Day not just as a holiday, but as a celebration of resilience, healing, and unconditional love.
As I cuddle Samantha, I’m reminded of the sacredness of these quiet moments. We wore matching shirts this year—mine with a heart missing a puzzle piece, hers with that missing piece. It’s a simple, but powerful reminder: my girls complete me, each in their own unique way. What is a rainbow baby?
Honoring Both My Daughters
Becoming a mother has changed me in the most beautiful and transformative ways. Despite the heartache, I am deeply grateful for this role. My daughters—both here and in spirit—have shown me a love that transcends time and space.
I strive every day to show up for Samantha, to be the mother she deserves. Even on hard days, my love for her never wavers. And though my angel baby is no longer physically here, her presence is always felt. She’s taught me how to love more deeply, more intentionally, and more fiercely than I ever thought possible.
This Mother’s Day, I choose to embrace all of it: the joy, the grief, the healing, the hope. I let go of expectations and simply open my heart to love.
Growing Through Grief: A Mother’s Healing and Resilience
I’m learning that motherhood is not about perfection—it’s about presence, growth, and grace. I want to be a mother who evolves, who heals, and who teaches by example. I want to show Samantha how to love herself, how to grieve, how to hope, and how to rise again.
I believe the best way to honor both of my daughters is to live with intention and continue growing as the mother they need. This Mother’s Day, I celebrate them by embracing healing and love—two gifts I hope to pass on for a lifetime.
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FAQ: Mother’s Day After Baby Loss
Q: What is a rainbow baby?
A rainbow baby is a child born after pregnancy or infant loss. They symbolize hope and healing after the storm of grief.
Q: How can I honor my baby on Mother’s Day?
You can light a candle, write a letter, plant flowers, or wear something meaningful in their memory.
Q: Is it okay to feel joy and grief at the same time?
Yes. Grief and joy can coexist. Many mothers experience both when celebrating with a rainbow baby while mourning a loss.
How Do You Celebrate Mother’s Day After Loss?
I’d love to hear how you’re honoring motherhood this year. Whether you’re remembering, celebrating, or simply surviving—your story matters.
Share your favorite traditions, small victories, or reflections in the comments. Let’s inspire one another with love and light. ✨
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